Getting Engaged?

Sup,

Weekends ended so fast. One day you're just lazing around at home and next you're at work trying to look for sponsors.

G E T T I N G E N G A G E D ?

Dont get excited yet! Yes, he have asked my father for my hand in MA...engagement. (haha a little suspense gets you excited.) That was like on the day of my 23rd birthday. I was surprised he was thaaaat brave. I mean we have been together for 3 years now and of course have been thinking of making it HALAL but both of us arent stable yet. I just finished my Dip and he is still serving his last years of NS. (NS is a national service for all Singaporean boys to undergo and be a "real man"). He is a year younger. (Love is blind: Ive always like older guys and have always dated them but this guy is very special and yup age does not matter)

So my dad agreed to him and this case was (i thought) closed.

Cut the story short, my dad talked to me over the weekend about this. He was quite worried. And i understand i dont blame anyone for thinking through this (thisss far). (Although i feel so tight up and like the middle person) I hate talking about this. Well, im a dreamy person and ive always dream and fantasize about how i would get proposed, how "My Prince Charming would liase with my parents himself. Basically, how things would work out smoothly like in a fairytale. Well, wake up, this aint a fairytale, its THE REAL WORLD.

Its not that i want it big, i just want it special. Im so stress about this. I dont want anyone hurt (i mean this is a sensitive issue well when money is the issue, yada yada yada. I understand that we are not stable yet (have not yet financially help our parents what more settle our "debt". (I will tell you more about that. We were cheated by this so called MLM group. Dont want to talk about it now.)But yeah financially, face it, we are not READY.

I hate to say this but i know it. But of course, i am excited. I could see in his eyes how sincere he is. But i dont know. I just hate talking about it. I dont want to take any sides. I dont want to hurt anyone. I just dont know how to deal with this. Can i just not think? hahaha.

So yeah....
I guess life isnt always how you picture it to be.
Be brave, and believe it will eventually be better.

Signing Off,





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