Welcome to my blog! A simple yet useful place for me to rant/share/curhat with people (whom I don't know of). Today is the third day of Ramadan and I hope those who are fasting, be blessed. In shaa Allah I will be able to fast in a few days time (due to menses).
I have always like Ramadan because not only it's a holy month but also it kinda brings the family together, or friends together. Just that this year, I am not really looking forward to Eid. To meet all those people who would constantly ask the norms. Questions like, "when are you getting married?", "where are you working now?", "have you finished your studies?" and what not. Questions like these make me wanna just stay home, lock myself in my room.
People who know me knows I am a very friendly, approachable and basically a "people" person. Well, honestly I can say I still do but not as much as before. My life literally sucks now. Well, I don't blame anyone but myself and because of that, I need time. Need time to fix this mess I myself make.
I have been pushing people away. People who use to be so close to me. Maybe because (1) I wanna start new and throw the negatives away (2) I don't know what/how to reply them (3) I just don't find a need to reply or I just don't feel like replying (4) I just need my space (5) I'm just spacing out.
If "you" were to read this, do know I don't hate you nor do I blame you for where we are at now. I thank you for still thinking of me and putting your ego away and just text me. However, though I still regard you as my friend (and keep all the memories we had together in my heart), I think it's just best if we were not as close as we use to. Keep doing what you do, you're good just by yourself, you don't need me anymore. I'm only slowing you down. Be strong when days seems down. You are strong. Without even me by your side. I am happy to see you happy and will always pray for your happiness. I am sorry if I ever hurt you then and even now. But now, we need to move on, and let go...
"Aku maafkan kau, harap kau pun begitu, kita kosong kosong ye..." - RZ
Till then,
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